Just who am I, anyway?

I'm a twentysomething-year-old girl, living somewhere in a major metropolitan area of the United States. I wish to remain anonymous for the time being, so that's as much information as anyone is going to get out of me for now. If you think you catch me giving away something, I'm probably not.

I come from a hick town a million miles from anywhere. For reference's sake, I will always refer to home as being in Montana, for the simple reason that as far as I know there are few to no religious Jews in Montana (precious few at all, truth be told), so no one can say, "Oh, you're from X?!? I think I know who you are!" You don't. Trust me on this one. In keeping with the spirit of home being a hick town in Montana, my parents will always be Ma and Pa, and siblings will be simply Sib.

Why have I decided to join my voice to the chorus of Jewish blogs on the 'Net? Of late, I have been feeling the need to talk out a lot of my issues--hashkafic, personal, and otherwise--and I figure, what better place to go for advice than the wide world out here? I also want a place that I can use as my personal platform to spout off on issues that concern me, vent about stuff going on in my life, and so on.

Often I feel confused about where I'm holding in life, where I'm going, what I want to be, who I want to be. I feel like I'm made up of so many different places and people and experiences that are all patched together like Scraps in the Oz books. I feel like I fall between the cracks in the cute little labeled "drachim"--Modern Orthodox, yeshivish, etc. I'm not really one or the other, but I feel like I have to pick something to be, or else I'll just be wandering aimlessly for who knows how long. That's also part of the name--"Patchwork Girl" for the crazy, mixed-up, more wild part of me; "Black and White" for, of course, the yeshivish part.

So, that's me for now. I hope that I'll have a lot to say, and that I'll keep everyone entertained, and that maybe I'll inspire people out there to think about things a little differently than they're used to. I'll certainly try. :)